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Monday, 09 March 2009

Monday!

Well it is definately Monday!!!! As soon as I woke up this morning I knew it was Monday. I overslept and was running late getting my kids to school and then my son decides out of the blue that he doesn't want to wait til the end of the school year to move to his dads....He wants to go NOW! Well let me tell you I am the mother and I will make that decision.....Well being the optimistic person I am I figured everyone was just tired for time change so I sent out my daily goodmorning text to everyone in my phone (normally I get alot of goodmornings back or how is your day so far or something) but not today! The first text I got was from B and all it said was call me! Well I was in the middle of a conversation with my sons teacher about his behavior recently so I text him and asked him to give me a few....He text back with NEVERMIND! Well Ok then my bad for having other things I have to take care of......I tried to call him when I was done but of course he didn't answer so I text him to apologize but still no response....I got alot of moody texts from my goodmorning text today.....I guess everyone got the memo that it was MONDAY! It's not even noon yet and all I want to do is crawl back in bed and wake up when its Tuesday or hey even Friday would be nice....but I can't do that because I have other things I have to do on this moody Monday ....like going into work early because my boss calls and apparently someone else also got the MONDAY memo and decided they were going to crawl back into bed instead of going to work! Ugh I just hope this day goes by quickly......I don't know how much more MONDAY I can handle.....hopefully Tuesday will be a better day!

Sunday, 08 March 2009

I am talking to two Guys....

Guy # 1) Ok so I met this guy and he was wonderful...We live hundreds of miles apart but we talked on the phone every day and begin liking each other alot so I kind of distanced myself because you know...I don't want to be hurt. Well he called on day and said that he thought it best that we just be buddies and if he ever came through town that we would hang out or something....Of course I played it off with an ok whatever you want additude but in all actuality I was very upset.
Guy #2) Well I met him about a week after me and guy 1 stopped talking...He had come into my job every day for a week and there was a little flirting going on when he left the last day he left his phone number....being me I waited a couple days then sent him a text saying he could have left his name also...lol...Well we started talking and flirting on the phone which is cool....He is very honest and as straight up said he wants to get down my pants and have someone to hang out with when he is town(he lives in another state also)....We have talked alot and I have told him that I won't just jump in bed with someone I don't know but I would love to hang out and get to know him and see what happens.
Guy #1) A few days after I start talking to guy #2 he texts and asks how I am doing..I text him back and then he calls...He wants us to start over and try again...well being the honest person I am I told him about guy #2. He says he wants to be with me and that he thinks it can work and wants me to give it a chance. We talk everyday multiple times a day and every day he asks if I am still talking to guy #2 and I tell him yes but we are just friends (which is true)...Everyday he calls and texts and tells me he misses me and can't wait to see me and I really starting to fall for him so I stop talking to #2 as much then he gets to go home for a week on vacation and I think that this is good because we will be able to talk more....Haha was I wrong. The whole week he was home we hardley talked at all....He was either busy or sleeping....He is not home much so I tried to understand.....The very day he left home to go back to work he was back to wanting to talk all the time...When I told him I would call him back or I was busy he got upset...Apparently he is not as understanding lol
Guy #2) Now he is saying he is down for whatever I want....I told him I'm not asking him for more than his friendship and as long as we were honest with each other and on the same page about things then things would be better. He says that he wants to get to know me and maybe have a relationship but he just don't think it would be fair to me because we will only get to see each other when he comes through town. I told him lets just be friends for now and see what happens that way if one of decides that it's to hard or gets in a relationship with someone else or whatever then thier won't be any hard feelings and we will still be able to be friends...Now he has kind of distanced hisself and we talk even less than we already were
My Dillema: I have been honest with both of them about the other. I really like them both but don't know if I like either one of them enough to be with them....I find myself sad and upset when me and #1 don't talk or if he gets upset with me....I am nervous about seeing him again because I do think I have started to fall for him and I am afraid that if I see him I might fall completly in love with him....I CANT LET THAT HAPPEN! If it happens I know I will be hurt for sure. I get excited when my phone rings and its #2 and I can't wait to see him and hang out with him....maybe because it is so uncomplicated with him right now but what if he decides he wants more or what if things happen and feelings between us get stronger? What if I decide to become sexually involved with either one of them...sex always makes things more complicated. I don't know I am so afraid of being hurt! Maybe I will just stop talking to both of them but will that really solve anything?
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Saturday, 21 February 2009

Turns out he was definately STALKER!

Ok so I posted blog titled Stalker or One of The Nice Guys. It turns out the guy was definately stalker. I tryed talking to the guy who I will refer to as S and telling him that I felt uncomfortable with the gifts and stuff but it was like I wasn't even saying anything. I didn't know what to do so I avoided S as much as I possibly could. He came into my job last week and was there everyday. I would walk all the way around the resturant to avoid him....and let me tell you the resturant is not that big. He followed me to my car after work one night and I told him he could not do that but he didn't listen then our Security Guard wrote a report on me saying I was being to friendly with the customers and sent it to corporate office....How can I be to Friendly I mean I am a waitress for crying out loud...What does he expect me to be a downright B...ch. I went to my Assistant manager who is also a friend and she tried talking to S but that didn't work either he just got even more mad and insisted he wasn't doing anything wrong. He told her he was untraditionally in love with me......interpretation: He is sycho! She tried to talk to him again the next day and that also didn't work so the general manager go involved and told him not to come back in. S insisted to her also that he wasn't doing anything wrong and that I wanted to be with him and that I would be with him. She said it was like she wasn't even talking. He just kept going on like him and I were in this wonderful relationship and he was telling one of his friends about it.....She finally just told him to leave and not come back or the police would be called but of course he retaliated and said he was going to go to corporate. My wonderful managers have called the company he works for, the hotel he is staying at and informed the police and I also wrote a statement about when it started and everything he has given me. Someone at my job was giving him information about me but hopefully that has been stopped. I now have to park as close to the building as I can and someone walks me into work and to my car after work because of everything that has happened this week plus he told one of my coworkers that I was the only woman he would die for and kill for and not just kill someone else for me but kill to be with me. I am going down Monday to file an official police report and file a VPO but it is still scary....It is to the point now that he kept calling the phone he sent to me (which I never took out of the box....It is with everything else in a big box to take to my job for my manager to give back to him or I will take it to the police) but he called and texted it the other night so much I took the battery out of the phone. I didn't even know the phone was on. I am now looking for another place to live just to be on the safe side and I will continue to have someone walk me to my car after work. I love my job and the people there really care about me and all their employees I don't want to have to give that up because of this sycho....but I also don't want to have to move either but I have four kids and their insn't someone at my house like there is at work. I have to protect my children first and formost and if there is any possibility he has found out where I live than I think it is best to just move.

Saturday, 31 January 2009

Stalker or just one of the nice guys?

Ok I have this situation I would kind of like another persons opinion on. See I got this sight because my sister told me about and mainly because nobody I know has it so I can really say what I am feeling or thinking without being judged by the people in my life. Well my situation is I started working as a server in a truck stop about 2 months ago and I love my job but there was a customer who came in and just like any of my customers I was nice to him and had general conversation which is part of the job right. Well when he left he left me an extremely large tip, I am talking alot of money here. I ran after him when I realized how much it was and tried to give it back but he wouldn't take it. He said it was Christmas time and that was his way of spreading the Spirit of Giving. Well I asked a few coworkers and my mom about it and they told me it was no big deal he was just being nice. He came back in the next day and my kids and their dad were there eating. Well he came back a couple hours later with some movies he said he had watched so much he didn't watch them anymore and he thought my kids might enjoy them. I told him I could't take them but he insisted and said he wanted someone to get some use out of them since he didn't watch them so I said thank you and took the movies I mean I have alot of customers who will leave me little gifts they when out of the toy machine and stuff so no big deal right. Well he had given me his phone number and told me to call if ever needed someone to talk to but I just kinda blew it off but I did call to thank him again for the money and the movies because it was alot of money. He had come in another time but I wasn't working and he left some hot sauce and perfume for me at work then he came in about a week ago when I was working and said he was mad at me when I askd him why he told me because I didn't tell him it had been my birthday....I asked him how he knew it was my birthday and he said I have my ways....Ok. Well he gave me some money which I refused to take and then when he left I went to clean where he had sat and there was the money, more movies and a cell phone. I figured he forgot his phone so I looked at the contacts and was going to call one of them to have them let him know but the only contact in it was his cell number. About 30 seconds later the phone went off and there was a text from him saying that he would get a newer phone and send it to me. I just ignored it but last night one of my co-workers text me and said the guy had left a package for me. I text the guy and explained to him once again that I was uncomfortable with him giving me stuf and money. I mean I am not used to someone wanting to give me stuff all the time you know. I told him it made feel like I was taking advantage of him and his kindness. I am not sure why he is being so nice to me and wants to give me things. He says he is not wanting anything in return from me but don't guys always want something in return? He is a bit older then me....Well about 20yrs older. My mom says he is just a nice guy but I don't know. I mean how many people do you know that will give someone they have met a couple of times for such short periods of time so much like this guy...So anyways I am curious of what yall think. Stalker or One of The Nice Guys and am I just reading into the situation to much?